BlueSuburbia takes you to a spot that’s stuffed with a lonely sort of menace – an oppressive concern that crushes you because it tells you that nobody will come prevent.
CONTENT WARNING: Self hatred. However possibly I’m studying this incorrect?
It felt just like the eyes have been throughout me as I walked by way of this place. They peered from all corners. They peeked from the earth underneath my ft. One thing was at all times staring regardless of the place I walked. In a spot so loaded with an awesome sense of imminent destruction – a world that will always collapse and reshape, stuffed with uncertainty – they’d simply watch me. Gawk away as I attempted to seek out someplace secure, however couldn’t. Not one in all them appeared considering serving to me, although. They might simply stare as I ran, in search of a way out of right here. It was like I used to be some type of leisure to them. That they only wished to see me undergo.
This sense made the remainder of the sport’s scary ambiance lower all of the deeper. I attempted to flee from a spider that known as for me to come back nearer, however the roads all appeared to guide again to it. I discover myself in countless halls stuffed with photographs of self-loathing, and an inside thought course of that desires me to hate myself. It guarantees some form of freedom in accepting that I deserve this hatred. That it ought to be my mantle or legacy, and that accepting it and being consumed by it’s the proper approach to work by way of it. Preventing it feels exhausting, All roads lead again to the spider, like I mentioned a second in the past. So why stroll? The place do I anticipate to go?
I really feel like I’ve to attempt. I really feel like I must proceed this stroll to know, even because it breaks my coronary heart and calls for to interrupt my soul together with it. BlueSuburbia is a crushing imaginative and prescient of despair, the bottomless value you pay for being damage and daring to discuss it, your agonies being became ‘content material’, and extra. Saying I need to spend extra time right here could be unfaithful. I’m afraid of this place. It hurts to face right here and hear. However I really feel that I’ve to see this by way of.
And there’s a spiteful hope by the top of the demo that I’m greedy onto. A hope that I need to roar so loud it shakes the Earth.
I’ve to see it by way of.
BlueSuburbia is at present in growth, however within the meantime, you may seize a demo from itch.io.